Ops~ I'm just realize I've not blog for a month.

It's time to get back to this death and abandoned blog.

Ever since the matter of relationship happened previously, the 2 phobias I was not be able to get over yet. These 2 phobia are staying in my mind now, I'll be thinking of it occasionally when something is happened. I did even dream of it. Feeling very nervous when it's in my dream. Due to these phobias, they somehow lowers my self-confidence and yet they've caused me more sensitive than the past. Friends assume my current life is without sadness and happy. In fact, don't judge a book by it's cover. Frankly, I'm happy when being with him most of the time. I shall thank to him to save me from the bad previous. But in my heart, I feel in-secure for now and then. This is not blaming about him, I should have to implant confident and trust towards myself. Whenever I see someone is prettier than me or better than me, sadness will visit me again. This is not jealousy or what. I'm just possessing too little self-confidence and demand for ideal as in appearance, attitude and behavior. Do you think the way I think way too idiot? I don't think it's. I'm just wanted to be better from time to time. So the first thing I'm gonna modify on my appearance will be my teeth. It's time for me to visit orthodontic doctor and the 2nd will be my rough skin. I hope within these few years, there will be different appearance of me and attitude and behavior. I believe I can do it.